I suck

I am just feeling like a total loser as of late. I am having serious female issues and I feel like crap all of the time. I need to find a good doctor...but I hate going! I guess I am nervous about a new office. In Memphis, I had the same doctor for 10 years. He knew my history. I don't want to start over again.
I have been a slacker in the exercise area. I started bleeding the day of the 5k in April, and haven't stopped. I don;t feel like exercising.
But, tonight I said ' I don't care how exhausted I am....I am going!"
I took my " New" bike and rode it to the trail, and then made it nearly to Bridal Veil Falls before I was overcome with cramps.
I figure I rode about 5 miles or so. I will try it again tomorrow.
So, I am going to try and do this. I know realistically I will not make my own personal goal by next month, but I am determined to be there by my 34th birthday in August.

I'm not going to let my body betray me again. Mind over body. Repeat. Mind over body.